Perfect Way to Complicate Things

Welcome back! It's been a while! Now, I don't have time to explain anything that's been happening with me right now, I need to dive right into this post. Don't be alarmed by the title. I really don't think there is a 'perfect' way to complicate things. Perfect would require it to be a good thing, and it's way beyond a good thing. The best word to describe this is a mess. A dirty mess. Lately things have been rough for not just me, but Maya, Lucas and Farkle included. I guess we're involved in a love triangle. But it's not really a triangle. It's a bunch of squiggly lines by now. I'm not going to go into much details, but basically, I like Lucas and so does Maya, but Lucas likes me and I'd never hurt him. Then, I also sort of liked Farkle for a good couple of days, but I'm not diving any further into that scenario. 

So a few nights ago,  Farkle suggested we have confessions night. I thought the idea was a great way to get everybody on track again. We all confessed something. Well, Farkle confessed mine when I said I didn't want to. That hasn't been figured out yet, but I can do that on my own. I'm fine. So, Lucas told Maya he liked her, but she had no idea that he meant that in the friend way. She got excited and super happy, considering what torture her last days have been with him. Everyone was happy that night. I don't remember exactly what happened the next day, but somehow, we were fighting. It wasn't good. I was devastated. Then to make matters worse, my little hamster Kiwi had to pass away at 2:44pm. It definitely wasn't good. So for the past while, it's been Farkle and Maya vs me and Lucas. Then this morning, Maya got fed up with Farkle and I got fed up with Lucas. I couldn't take him anymore. It was too long that I've just been with him. Eventually, Uncle Eric had to come and settle our problems, which slightly worked. I thought that things would be great. But since then, Farkle was acting strange to me and I knew something was wrong. I tried to be super nice to him. I don't like him romantically, but I love him. He pushed me away and got angry. For why would he do that? For maybe he was over me. He was. He really was over me. I told him I don't want to see him on New Years, and I still plan not to. 

So, introducing another problem, if you read Maya's blog post, she wrote about how her and Farkle might like each other. Why would she do that to me?! Just to make herself feel better about Lucas?! I can't believe that! Yes, I don't like Farkle like that anymore, but doesn't she get that I did a few days ago, and doing that is going to trigger old feelings?! Apparently she didn't think about that, so now I won't stop thinking of Farkle and how he might like her now. I just can't believe she'd do that to me! Today she tried to save one relationship and it was ours! So now she's gonna go and crush on Farkle? I don't think so. She can if she really wants to, but I hope she knows that in result of that, she will be losing me, and losing Lucas even more.